*WRITERS’ BLOCK
* LOVE OF DIVINE MASCULINE
I believe insensitive and kind men. I believe in the mystical men who believe in themselves. I believe in men who seek temperance and peace inside them. I believe in men poets, dreamers, magicians, writers, alchemists, artists, teachers, and angels.
* THIS IS SELF RESPECT
“The beauty of bonding & binding was to show respect to the relationship, not subordinate to your spouse. In turn, this creates the emotional byproduct of the distorted masculine, serving only the ego through flesh and toys. The latter would be the divine masculine who sees that they can control, but this would serve no purpose to their deepest desires.”
* JOURNAL ENTRY: 8/18/20
Message from the Soul to the Inner Child :
So I just had my moment of realization that I use to take help or suggestions as an attack on my ego, and I would lash out or shut others down for wanting to help us. I would then pray for more understanding, friends, and tribe, and then when we got them, I would push them away for thinking the thought they may know more than I knew of ourselves.
* AUTONOMY OF LONELINESS
Loneliness is our addiction; we get drunk or high because the outside world said says, "you're too much," or “you’re not enough”, while our inside world is dealt the burden of sadness, and so mentally escaping keeps our emotions busy. One does not have to think or even try in this world.
* THIS EXISTENCE
I am thinking of a moment when I didn't know the truth of our being is simply a state of allowed presence. We dress in the accessories of societies that command how to talk, walk, dress, be. How can one tell who I am if I cannot tell who I am to me? . . . How can someone else tell me how to be more of me if I do not even see them? Void expressions of reflections, like a glance in a mirror, glaring back with a bright smile & familiar face, and then you hear a familiar name.